My 2016 reading goals

I'm probably not the only one who really loves reading but somehow fails to do it in the right way. Most people's problem is that they want to read a lot but don't find enough time. My problem is slightly different: I also want to read more and I even spend a lot of time doing so, however I find myself struggling to finish the books I start reading. It's not that I don't like the books and therefore stop - I read each "The Messenger" by Markus Zusak and "Eleanor & Park" by Rainbow Rowell to approx. the half but never got beyond that point despite enjoying it. The reason for that is that I always read several books simultaneously and forget about the others I was reading when starting a new novel. So, in order to read more and especially more efficient I have set myself a few reading goals for the new year.

My aim is to read at least 54 novels over the next twelve months. Considering that I'm a very slow reader it could be a little too much but since I'm graduating from school this year and have three spare months before going to university I think that it will be manageable. I had a look on Popsugar's Reading Challenge for 2016 and the Challenge Suggestions on Goodreads and picked the ones I liked the most from both of the lists and kind of created my own personal challenge. 

Books I want to read in 2016 include ...

  1. a book by a Nobel Prize-winning author (I'm considering Orhan Pamuk?)
  2. a book that's more than 600 pages (probably »Gödel, Escher, Bach« by D. R. Hofstadter)
  3. a graphic novel (never read a graphic novel before - quite excited for this one!)
  4. a book with a protagonist who has your occupation
  5. a dystopian novel
  6. the first book you see in a bookstore
  7. a book from the library
  8. a book based around a library or bookstore
  9. a book picked for you by someone else (this one probably scares me the most ...)
  10. a book considered a »classic«
  11. a book of poetry
  12. a book with a cover that drew you in 
  13. a book that was originally written for NaNoWriMo
  14. a book that takes place in a college/ university setting
  15. a book published this year
  16. a book with a creative title
  17. a book with a short title
  18. a book with an unappealing cover
  19. a book with time travel (probably »Slaughterhouse-Five« - still need to read this one for English class!)
  20. a book you bought secondhand
  21. a book you own but haven't read 
  22. a book you're excited about
  23. a classic children's book
  24. a forgotten classic
  25. a short-story collection
  26. an ancient play (probably »Medea«)
  27. a book recommended by someone you just met 
  28. a book that's becoming a movie this year
  29. a book you can finish in a day
  30. an ancient book (»The Iliad«! Probably not going to survive this one, because Achilles and Patroclus, and the feels just ugh)
  31. a play by Shakespeare
  32. a contemporary novel
  33. a book you've always wanted to read but haven't
  34. a book you saw someone else read
  35. a book you could use as a doorstop (i.e. 700+ pages) (probably »Being and Nothingness« by Jean-Paul Sartre)
  36. a book written by an author born in the same month as you (I still need to read »Das Parfüm« by Patrick Süskind for school, and found out that he's born in March too! yasss)
  37. a book with names in the title
  38. a book with a title that describes your life 
  39. a book with a long title
  40. a book recommended by a teacher or librarian
  41. a book that everyone is talking about
  42. a book that takes place on a continent other than Europe or North America
  43. a book that's been adapted into a musical
  44. a book originally written in a minor language
  45. a book considered a »modern classic«
  46. a book by or containing an LGBT individual (considering my love for gay romance, this really shouldn't be too hard ...)
  47. a book based on true events
  48. a book about a road trip
  49. a classic from the 20th century
  50. a book with a blue cover
  51. a book that takes place during summer 
  52. a book published in 2015 
  53. a science-fiction novel 
  54. a book at least 100 years older than you 
So, yes that was the easy bit. Because I have extended my reading goals by saying that by the end of 2016 I need to have covered all of the following genres:

Biography, Autobiography or Memoir ... Gamebook ... Detective Novel ... Dystopian ... Fantasy ... Graphic Novel ... Historical Fiction ... Horror ... Manga ... Science Fiction ... True Crime ... Urban Fantasy ... Western ... Young Adult 

Since I only read popular science books and contemporary romance (yeah, I'm one of those people) some of these are going to be really hard for me. Especially when it comes to Manga, Horror, Fantasy, Science Fiction, Detective Novel, True Crime, ... basically every genre apart from dystopian, historical fiction and young adult I have no idea what to do. I'm kind of lost. Meeh. 

So, yeah that's it (I just realized how often my sentences begin with »So«. Akward). I will try to make monthly updates on my progress! 


Dear Person; the Things I Never Got to Tell You

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1am // The tiny village I call home where nothing ever happens has long drifted into sleep. Silence surrounds everything around me, but inside my head it's unusually loud; filled with the voices of people who thought that their stories would forever remain unheard. 
I don't know how I came across them but at some point I found myself going through the lost and forgotten corner of the web - blogs people had written in 2001, ...3, ..11. They barely include one or two posts; all directed at people they had never had the courage to tell the things that are now left untold. Strange thinking that I was a child then; completely unaware of everything people experienced around me.
What I did is easy to explain: I visited all websites that followed the structure of It'd be a lie if I said I was in any way prepared for what was about to come. Without knowing what was happening, I found myself in the middle of the night listening to people and their stories about that one person whom they somehow couldn't forget. It's truly heart-breaking and gut-wrenching to see that no matter how many years or kilometers separate us, we always go trough the same things and make the same mistakes ... over and over and over again. 

Here are some hidden gems I found on my way, truly beautiful sentences that expose the desperation all of us feel at some point in our lives. The most interesting part, at least for me, is that all these people aren't proper writers. I learned that it doesn't take creative writing courses or books on how to write in order to create such beauty. You need to know what pain feels like, if you want to touch another person's heart with the written word.

I guess it's that I think bad things can happen when a man never tell the truth; he has to have at least one person or place or whatever where he tells the truth or else he begins to believe his own lies and that is the beginning of the descent into drooling craziness and I don't want to go there.

I don't really know how to feel anymore. I don't even necessarily care either. 

I never have time to think anymore and it drives me crazy. 

It's rare that you find someone that is what you're looking for, and if it happened to anyone, I'm glad it was you. 

I just feel kind of numb lately, but I feel good. I hope everything is good on your end, man. 
It's funny how things look in memory.
You left me with a large amount of love.

A woman, now a wife and mother of two children aged 26, to her first love Antony (September 2007):
The guy long gone in my life but the one that showed me how to love the man I am now with. And I hope that you are doing well wherever you are. 
We would get really close, fight, stop talking, repeat. 

We were never official. But I loved him. He loved me. If he had asked me to marry him, I would have said yes.

Where do you even meet people after you're done with college?

Tricia to her husband Brian that worked as a fireman and died on 9/11 (January 2004):
Today I feel like stomping my feet and proclaiming that life isn't fair (It's not, but I guess you already know that). 

It's weird that we couldn't find you. Poof, gone. Not only in a spiritual sense, but in a physical sense too. Atomized, was the lovely word used, I think. What must it feel like to be atomized? I can't even think about it. 

Keep an eye on them, ok? While you're at it, keep an eye on me too.
Things are weird here without you. The house seems really empty with just me and mom. I can tell when she's thinking about you because she starts cleaning. 

Hope you're doing okay.

You looked like you were searching for something. Back and forth, up and down, you moved all around and could not find it. I turned my vision back to the African novel sitting open on my lap, trying to bring my thoughts back to it, but instead I thought about your search and I realized that I was searching for something too, something I now know I will never find in you. 
Today has been one of those days - the kind that is absolutely perfect except for the fact that I missed you through every second of it. 

I wouldn't be missing you. And you wouldn't be doing whatever it is you do on a rainy January night completely oblivious to the rambling thoughts of a lonely, heartsick girl.

I wonder if you know how deeply you touched my life.
And I wonder: did I impact yours at all?

I wonder if Tom has found the right girl for him, I really hope he has. And if Cameron saw his brother again, and how his last two years of school went. For some reason, these were the stories that touched me the most. I also wonder if perhaps I have ever seen any of these people, on the street perhaps, or somewhere else or if any of them have seen each other.
All of this has left me thinking, and confused.